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I hate stupid people. Not the ones who are blonde but the ones who are really stupid. I almost lost the one thing that matters the most to me this weekend. If he would have died I don't know what I would have done. I wouldn't be the same person if he died. Things would be so different. My life wouldn't be the same without him. What really hurts the most is that he was so close to not being mine anymore. I can handle a lot of things. I handled my dad getting put in jail. I handled my step dad being kicked out. I'm handling their divorce. I'm handling school. I handled being alone for 15 years. But if I lost him. I wouldn't be able to deal with something like that. After I found out about the crash, I cried. I hadn't heard from him and then hearing that he was in a really bad accident just broke my heart. Things will never be the same. The accident took part of me. No I wasn't in it and I'm sure that the ones who were in it are probably more affected then me. But did the driver even think about anyone that was in the car? Did she even think about her speed? Did she think about what she was doing? Does she understand how completely lucky they are? They could have died. Then what? Her parents go and apologize to everyone? That won't make it better. She could have hurt more people then she had. If anyone had died, she would be blamed for it. Losing someone you love is painful. I know for a fact how hurtful it is. When my great grandmamma died, it almost killed me. If I had to live without him...it would ruin me...I would become like those prissy girls who don't talk to you because they think that their so cool. I would be so prissy even they would come talk to me. My heart would be broken and no one could ever fill it. It will never be full without him. He pulled me out of the dark and got me to talk to people. He made me the person I am today. I love him and the last thing I want is to lose him. I just want him to be safe and happy.

Funny Thoughts

Do fish get thirsty? If everything you say is a lie, are you telling the truth, or lying? If we’re closer to death every day of our lives, is time really on our side? Why do some products state, “Not recommended for children over 12 years of age” - aren’t people over 12 years of age not children? Why is Greenland made of ice and Iceland made of green grass? Doesn’t expecting the unexpected make the unexpected become the expected? How come wrong numbers are never busy? If all the nations in the world are in debt, who’s got all the money? Why do some directions for medicine read, “Only apply to infected area” - where else would you apply it? What color is a chameleon on a plaid shirt? Why is it when you transport something by car it’s called a shipment but when you transport by ship its called cargo? How come you never read about a psychic winning the lottery? Is it really necessary for the Postal Department to print the words, “Post Office will not deliver without postage” on your package?  Why do they call the airport a terminal if flying is supposed to be safe? Why is bra singular and panties plural? Why is the man who handles all your money is called a broker? Why isn’t the word, phonetic - spelled the way it sounds? Did Adam and Eve have navels? Does anyone ever vanish with a trace? Why are those “easy open” food packages never easy to open? How come when socks come out of the dryer, there’s only one of each? Why do gas stations advertise their prices with a 9/10 at the end - does that really help sell more gas? Why do restaurants offer appetizers - don’t you already have an appetite if you’re there? What happened to the other 56 varieties of Heinz 57 sauce? Why do some moist towelette packages come with instructions that read, “Open package and use” - what else would you do with them? Why do some people feel the need to say, “Know what I’m saying?” after everything they say? How did James Bond know if his martini was shaken and not stirred? Why do people who sing the loudest tend to be the ones who are the most off key? Why do shampoo instructions read, “Rinse and repeat” - do they think we missed our head the first time? If one person is a size 52 and the other is a size 2 can one size really fit all? 

Spring Break

Spring Break was pretty fun. I left for Bakersfield, California the Thursday we got out. It takes 6 1/2 hours to get from my house to Bakersfield. When I got there I really thought my mom was lying to me. I honestly didn't think that this was the place where I had once lived. I lived in Bakersfield from the time I was one until I was eleven. When I left it was so small. Now it is more like a mini L.A. It kind of scares me how much a small town can change in five years. Things are so busy there. Now that I actually got to see almost all of Bakersfield it really has changed. I ran into people I remember from kindergarten that would never do anything wrong because they were so innocent. My old friend just had a baby and she had always said that she wasn’t going to have sex until she was married. My cousin smokes and as a kid he used to say that he wouldn’t ever smoke and now he’s a chain smoker. A girl that I have known since she was born is now a slut. Things have changed so much over there. What is really funny is that growing up everyone thought that I would be all those things.