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I hate stupid people. Not the ones who are blonde but the ones who are really stupid. I almost lost the one thing that matters the most to me this weekend. If he would have died I don't know what I would have done. I wouldn't be the same person if he died. Things would be so different. My life wouldn't be the same without him. What really hurts the most is that he was so close to not being mine anymore. I can handle a lot of things. I handled my dad getting put in jail. I handled my step dad being kicked out. I'm handling their divorce. I'm handling school. I handled being alone for 15 years. But if I lost him. I wouldn't be able to deal with something like that. After I found out about the crash, I cried. I hadn't heard from him and then hearing that he was in a really bad accident just broke my heart. Things will never be the same. The accident took part of me. No I wasn't in it and I'm sure that the ones who were in it are probably more affected then me. But did the driver even think about anyone that was in the car? Did she even think about her speed? Did she think about what she was doing? Does she understand how completely lucky they are? They could have died. Then what? Her parents go and apologize to everyone? That won't make it better. She could have hurt more people then she had. If anyone had died, she would be blamed for it. Losing someone you love is painful. I know for a fact how hurtful it is. When my great grandmamma died, it almost killed me. If I had to live without him...it would ruin me...I would become like those prissy girls who don't talk to you because they think that their so cool. I would be so prissy even they would come talk to me. My heart would be broken and no one could ever fill it. It will never be full without him. He pulled me out of the dark and got me to talk to people. He made me the person I am today. I love him and the last thing I want is to lose him. I just want him to be safe and happy.